Trainspotting

I happen to notice a poster in my new apartment, it is about famous novel and cult movie called "Trainspotting." I found it interesting, this is what it says:

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?


It neatly summarizes what most of the people think about life.

During my early twenties and came across a cult, members of which were completely taken by thought of not following this conventional path. Unfortunately none of them had clear understanding as to what different they wanted do. Only thing they knew that their life has to be different than this. This also reminds a friend, who wanted to devote his life to study literature and to follow a austere life-style. Unfortunately most of them failed to choose a life.

I never agreed with them, I had a simple understanding of life, graduate (with engineering degree [:)] ) by 21. take up a job (actually, after I graduated, I tried to run a small business ... Well !!! more about this some other time), enjoy bachelorhood and easy money (we can debate on it), buy a house, buy a car, get married, have kids and .... same old stuff.

I got most of the things as planned, but recently different thoughts stared haunting my mind. Where am I heading with all this. Would I really be satisfied with my achievements ? Or is there more to life than all these material success and comforts. I have mood swings between accumulating lot of wealth and following some cult away from all these complexities of life.

For now I have decided to take the conventional path, until I find all my answers,
well however stupid it may sound, I have chosen my path.

N one day, I will get better at writting ... [:-)]

10 minutes of documentation ...

I spent last couple months working in technology division of one of most revered companies. It was one of the most challenging assignments I have ever worked on. It was one of the most complex architectures; and lack of documentation made it even more complex. I had no idea that, I will have to play Spy’s role along with providing technical solutions. My education has equipped me with enough the technical knowledge but no spying techniques :-( .

I talked to many people inside and outside of the group, on the importance of documentation. Everyone turned cold shoulders to me saying, “We are driven by business, I will rather do some useful work than documentation (I never knew documentation is useless thing).” Well people should understand that only 20% time is spent in developing software where as 80% time is spent in maintaining it.

Well if you think you have right of saving 10 minutes of your time while developing a component and then wasting 20 minutes of someone else’s time every time he/she comes to fix it, then you have a problem.

Unity in diversity

I still remember that afternoon; Bhat asked me my Orkut id?? N I had no idea wht he was talking abt. (By the way for those who don't know my professional background, I was highly paid, s/w engg then), My reply left Bhat dumb folded. It was the last thing on earth he cld imagine that a s/w engg doesn't hv a clue abt Orkut.

He explained me wht Orkut is n y we use it (No no no its not only for dating guys, I guess its the best tool ever launched for connecting people, better than Nokia I believe :D) I was very much indifferent n showed almost no interest in this crappy thing, but I had no courage deify orders of Peshawa the Great (Bhat). I ended up opening an account on Orkut.

My frnds n/w started growing. Soon I had more than 50 frnds in my list and had subscribed of about 5 odd communities. N suddenly I realized flaw in this so called n/wing tool. There were thousands of communities out there, every community claiming how it was superior or different than other communities.

Communities created on cast, sub-casts, some geographical parameters, sun signs, moon signs the some pathetic ones like my name starts with ... Everybody was struggling hard to advertise his/her uniqueness. People even ended up forming communities like I hate XYZ, where XYZ is either some other community or a revered personality in some country, or even a nation at times.

People started derogating some other community, religion some times techno savvies pointing out how technology they are wrking one is superior than some XYZ technology.

Sole purpose of the tool was defeated, tool wasn’t connecting ppl n e more, in fact it provided more n more ways, ideas and directions to classify and disconnect people from each other.

Groups started getting more n more specialized like Java->Core Java, J2EE
J2ee-> struts, EJBs,JDF n ….. specialization is still gng on.

At this pt of time I am not able to put my thoughts together, but you can form a group to discuss wht exactly I meant n start threads on that. :D

As Jonh F. Kennedy rightly said “If we cannot end now our differences, at least we can help make the world safe for diversity”

Liar Liar Liar

There is always some fiction in my truth and some truth in my fiction.

You can check my Orkut profile, in about me section i have written the famous lair's paradox "Never Trust me because I never tell the truth". I can look straight in yours eyes n still lie. It is true to some extent (trust me this time I am offering you truth )

Sometimes you need to lie to save your skin, sometimes to save someone else's, sometimes to make someone feel comfortable or sometimes to put an end to some !#@!# discussion and this list is end less. I lied N number of times, I never cared abt consequences, n (touch wood) nthing went wrng till date.

I have told you thousands of stories. Do you think all stories are really true?? May be not, does that really matter. All characters I mentioned, do they really exist in this world? If they do; then wht about the fictitious stories I came up with those real names. Aah ha situation is getting more n more complex and I just love it. Have u seen Hindi movie Chocolate? (or Original English one "The Usual Suspects") I just njoy such an enigma.

I will never ever offer you 100% truth; I will carry it to my death bed. I am as complex as thoughts I am putting down today.

Some people find me naive, some find me manupulative, some find me rude, some find me loving, some find me caring, some find me stoic, some find atheist, some think bappa really talks to me n tells me few things.

Then who am I really??? Probably all of these

But how is it possible?? Are there many Pushkars roaming arnd, or it is me playing different roles with differene ppl, or it is ppl's perspective who analyze my behavior n attach me those tags or it has do with 'Quantum Theory of Parallel Life Times'. Aah ha I added some more complexity.

If concept of ParallelLlife Times is true, then I wld like to meet all varitions of me, I wld like to talk them and confuse them too with some legends or apocryphals. This one of my dreams. This time all I said in this article is 100% true :D

Here comes da first article

On a freezing morning in Boston, here I am wrking @ engg labs, for my bread n butter. I am all alone sitting in the lab for almost no reason but the 'Vitamin M'. I am so bored n so exhausted that I am finding it difficult to keep my eyes open. I tried reading some tutorials on web n it made situation worst than I was already into.

N idea flashed in mind, to start writing articles in my blog account. I dunno wht I am supposed to write in here n wht not. Afterall not all thoughts are to be shared. U hv to hv an access specifier associated with ur thoughts, incidences, idea n wht not. Some of these are publicly accessible, some are private and some are protected. Aah I am again going in object oriented way .......

N e ways, now that I have decided to keep posting my thoughts online you hv got access to them. :-D. U can of course put ur comments but at ur own risk B-)

Y'day i was talking to one of my frnds who was utterly confused as to wht field to choose for specialization in masters course. While he was telling me different pros n cons of diff fields, n about job prospects, avg salaries n myriad of things like that, I interrupted him n asked wht's that he exactly wants? N he had no idea on this earth wht is he looking for. He don't even know why he has travaled a thousand miles from his homeland n has come to wht is populary know as land of opportunities. N after exchanging few more thoughts wid him I found out that basic problem wid him n most of us that we realy don't know wht we exactly want to do. Most of us just want go wid the flow, again it is perfectly acceptable if u know that, that’s wht u are wanna do.

I believe we all are born intelligent but education ruins us. There is an adage 'Give him a fish he won't go hungry for today, or give him a fishing rod n he won't go hungry from today' I look at education as fishing rod. All those fat books, those intriguing theories are there for u to sharpen ur brain n to develop ur thinking ability. But for almost all of us, get caught inside the boundaries set by these theories. Nobody realizes that there is largest educational institute out there n all u hv do to enroll in it is to switch ON ur brain n step outside ur class room.

Start exploring things n u will find that there are thousands of streams/opportunities there than u can ever imagine. Spend some time figuring out how u can use ur fishing rod efficiently to get more number of fishes in your basket. Remember fish doesn't mean ur bread n butter or money, of course these things are important nonetheless fish might represent peace of mind, job satisfaction, happiness or anything that u think is important for you. At the end of the day u shld be happy. rt???.

Here I end my first article which u may think is little unorganized, some times digressing too, but u know wht!!! Writing (typin :)) it made me happy :-D.